~nocturnal-instincts

yeah, i dont have much to talk about. nothing great is goin on. christmas is coming. wohoo my mom is allowing her homeless bro who we havent seen in 20 years to come stay with us. therefore; i will probably wake up on the beautiful morning of christmas with my mom wondering where her brother went and the me wondering where in the hell the presents went. ah, oh well. atleast i get to watch Scrooged and National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation!!!!!
i have been gettin into the whole indie/college rock thing. trying to look for something new. actually im just looking for lyrics i can relate to. so i found a song called "Letting the Telephone Ring" by some Ani Defranco person. the lyrics bring back memories that i only wish could fade away as easily as my soul did....merry x-mas

"Im Letting the Telephone Ring" ani d

I am letting the telephone ring
cause I don't want to know why
I don't want to hear you explain
I don't want to hear you cry
I have written so much about you
so much I thought I knew
words like water used to flow
now what could I possibly have to say?
she is someone I don't even know
and all the things that you've given to me
I see now were simply reparations
they were gifts of your guilt
they were my preparation
I know I should be mature
keep my feet on the floor
but for some reason,
I just don't want them anymore
I know this shouldn't be important
compared to you and I
but I can still hear my questions
I can still hear you lie
now vicariously I have her in me
I want to peel off my skin
let the water wash in
you always said that I was hiding
that I was hiding from you
but you are capable of things I could not do
I remember how you pretended
how you pretended to touch me
I remember how I couldn't bring myself to believe
I remember wondering,what was wrong
what was wrong
how could I be so naive
how could I be so naive?